This has literally nothing to do with my recovery or anything else, but it is so important to me nonetheless.

I have prayed (and prayed and prayed and prayed…) for guidance when it comes to all the decisions I have to make regarding my major, transfer school, and future career. It hasn’t been easy at all. I have gone back and forth more times than I can count. I’ve fallen into times where I wanted to please my parents so much that I would do a job I don’t really see myself in. I decided to take a few weeks off and not make any decisions and tonight I finally have figured it out.

Nursing was my very first dream. I have always loved medicine (I’ve been addicted to all medical shows since I was maybe 7) but as I grew older I never imagined being the doctor. My time in a children’s hospital solidified y choice: I wanted to be like the nurses who took care of me. Due to my academic ability I was always pushed to choose a “better” profession. That along with some other things led to me changing my mind so many times. Now I am right back where I started. I know that nursing is the right choice.

Coming to this decision tonight was not expected at all. I have definitely been leaning more towards nursing lately but today I decided I would research it a little. I went form being unsure to falling in love. I read so many stories of nursing and what an amazing field it is. Specifically, my absolute dream would be to work in a NICU. I also read up on that specialty and was moved to tears. I know this is where God wants me to be.

My ultimate dream is to work at the hospital I was in all those years ago. I want to change lives just like the nurses did for me. It definitely depends on what all happens, but I am pretty set in my plan. I so wish there were a way to attend GBC. It makes me sick to my stomach knowing that isn’t going to be the case. I am learning to love Calvin though. It truly is the better school when it comes to academics and reaching my goals. I would have more jobs options because it’s so well known and I have no doubt that I would get where I want to be. After working for a few years I plan on completing a MSN program to become a neonatal nurse practitioner, but this may change depending on how everything goes. Really the important things is that I know what school and major I am called to. God will take care of everything else.

I feel at peace and so good about this.