They don’t know when but tonight in the ER the doctor said they can’t do anything more for him. He has CHF and water gaining and bad O2 levels. I know too much to believe that this will ever get better. Pastor is talking about how he’s going to make him do all these things and get better but I know it won’t. He’s dying and there is absolutely nothing we can do.

This is the first day I’ve ever cried about it. I haven’t seen him so sick. For a while it was like he didn’t even know we were there with him. I want to give up. I want to quit school and go to FV right now. I feel unstable and scared. I just wish things were different.