Crow

IMG_20171230_012656_699This grainy, not the most flattering, post-workout picture fills me with excitement, joy, and a little pride.

My yoga journey in general since returning home from treatment has been difficult. I had to build back strength after a long period of exercise restriction. On top of that, EDS has made the process painful. My joints have been very unstable. That means I have to be careful with yoga or I could dislocate a joint. All of this means it has been a slow process of rebuilding.

I have been working on getting to crow for months. That involves a ton of frustration because of struggles I am facing. Some days I just gave up after one attempt. I couldn’t get the perfect mixture of alignment, focus, and strength. Even a week ago I could barely go a few seconds without falling back down. Today I went a full minute!

Meeting this goal is significant enough to post at 2 am. The way that it’s impacted me means so much more. I am allowing myself to feel a little bit proud of my body for helping me reach it. This has nothing to do with size, weight, or imperfections. I can look at accomplishing crow pose as proof that my body isn’t all bad.

This is what little steps toward recovery look like

3 thoughts on “Crow

  1. your journey, your being, and your crow are breathtaking. be easy with yourself, be gentle, and you are so so so worthy of this journey and worthy of this world. 💙

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